I realised I'm blogging about some abstract topics. Things I've learned from books and then in practice. I tend to generalise what I see and try to teach others. Who am I to do this? Who am I to tell others what to do and what's important or how to live?
At the same time I'm holding myself back from writing about the personal stuff that happens each day. I'm hiding. I have a shield high up to protect from the world outside. I want to write about true and personal things, but:
- don't know how and
- I'm afraid of doing it.
The how can be learned. But the fear is not easy to overcome. I'm afraid to be banal, to be wrong, stupid or ridiculous. So instead I'm being pompous by writing about the big stuff. There's no me in the writing. I didn't realize that until now.
Also, where's the humour? Where are the jokes that come so easy in every day?
Why so serious?
(Joker in Batman)
I kind of dislike the way I'm writing right now. It's seriously limiting, although it feels safe at the same time. Back again to "this thing you don't want to write about is what you have to write about".
Seth Godin says that blogging every day will make you more strategic in what you do. Because just the awareness that you'll have to publish something each day will make you think more about what you do and how you do it. Perhaps it's true. But I'm already thinking too much about the big picture and already strategise too much.
Does it mean I should settle on describing the daily actions, the tips&tricks of sifting through CVs? It doesn't make much sense to me. It would be like those old days of blogging when people used to write about everything and nothing. Or sharing what they've had for lunch that day. Boring... I'll try to find the middle way. I guess I need to discover my own voice :)